What To Do

I'm still torn about whether or not I should continue TTC or not. I want to, but I don't. I was just realizing how much I missed with the two kids next door and I really don't want my husband to miss that. The oldest is now riding a bike without training wheels and the youngest is already running around everywhere. It's crazy to see how much I have missed and I was only away for 8 months. How would it be to miss out on the very first year of your child's life? However, we both want a baby horribly bad. He says he's fine as long as we can have our baby, but I'm really not. As much as I want a baby, I want him to be there for all of it. So what do I do? I know I can't just dismiss what he feels, but I think it would be the wrong decision and I just feel like he would really regret missing out on all of that. Especially if we only get to have one child.

MySpace Bulletins

Is there really a need to post the same bulletin 7 or mor times in a row? I admit I used to do the occasional survey when I was bored and I still sometimes do, but, I don't see the need to post a bulletin about a particular event so many times in a row. Worst part is, more than one person posts these same bulletins that many times. If you want to get word out, post one, maybe even two, but please, not a million.

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Traveling Can Fool With FF

I got crosshairs the other day but before anyone gets bummed cuz the hubby wasn't here to try, know that they took them away. I figured it was a mistake. I was sleeping all weird, drinking on occasion and just the major temp and humidity difference between Alaska and Buffalo I knew it was going to be inaccurate. I'm kinda glad cuz if I would have ovulated, I would still be bummed. I was at first and then when they took them away I was kind of happy. Only bad thing is, now I don't know when to expect AF so I don't know if we'll get another chance to try again.

Back Home

So I'm back home. I flew in and surprised my mom. It was great. I love doing that to her lol. I never realized how much I could miss home. I used to think Buffalo was so boring. It's really not at all. Fairbanks is boring. They don't have the festivals we do, the lawn fetes, and their fair is like one of our carnivals. I don't miss the humidity though. I got outside and it was like walking into a heavy wall. This probably doesn't make sense to most people but if you live in a humid area, you know what I'm talking about. I just wish my husband was here. 23 more days...

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I miss my husband.

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Tryin This New App

I'm not really sure how this all works but I'm giving it a try to see how it posts.

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I Hate Tila Tequila

Why do so many people like her? She's a bitch. I watched the reunion show of the second season of A Shot At Love With Tila Tequila and it was so funny to watch what an idiot she made of herself. The chick she picked (Tila says she's bisexual...riiiight) turned her down. Then as the girl is defending her choice to not be with her, Tila is becoming more and more immature by the second, swearing and interrupting her; especially when the other girl had a point. I recommend watchin it for a good laugh. It's even funnier to see the audience defend Tila. Who cares? She got what was coming to her and no matter how much you boo the other girl and cheer Tila, she's not going to be your friend, or lover, and give you all her money. I swear, Americans get dumber by the day.

So yesterday was the 4th of July. Whoop-de-doo. It's John's favourite holiday and he's not even here. I really hate the Army. Isn't it bad enough he's gonna be gone for a year? I know they need to do it, but they could've picked a better time to do this. It was such a bad day too. Jenna and I went to go get her hair chopped, and the driver side window breaks. All she did was roll it down and now it's stuck. We had it back up, but it fell down and now it won't even move. Most awesome of all is NO ONE IS HERE. I don't even have enough money to fix it til next paycheck cuz this was our short paycheck cuz of rent. Awesome. Just awesome. I can't even get it fixed then though cuz Jenna can't get on post and I don't have a license. I can't wait til my husband gets home. :(

My Husband Is Gone

Well it's here. The first major chunk of time I will be away from my husband since we've been together. I thought 2 weeks was hard. It's only been about 9 hours since I last saw him and it already sucks. Thank god I got Jenna and Call Of Duty 4 to keep me occupied.

Obviously TTC is out for this month since he won't be here. We only have one chance left before he leaves me for a year (how am I gonna handle that) and it might not even work out. Oh well, I guess we'll see what happens. It just seems to be going so quickly. He's already gone now and then he'll come back, we'll go home for a visit, and then we come back and have roughly a month together before he leaves again. Luckily though we get to bring our niece back with us when we come back from vacation. I'm really excited and so is he.