Tuesday, September 15, 2009

My Diagnonsense

I went for my follow up for my heart today. I ended up leaving with a completely unexpected prescription. I left with a prescription for Celexa. Awesome. For those who don't know, that is an anti-anxiety, anti-depression med. Apparently the reason my heart is so out of whack (my heart monitor showed my lowest heart rate at 61bpm and my highest 161bpm) is because the little receptor that gets signals from your brain is basically malfunctioning and instead my backup receptors are firing at will causing my heart to spaz out. So, he's hoping that the Celexa will get my anxiety (caused basically by OCD) under control. (Personally I think it's a dehydration issue). I'm not thrilled with taking this medication at all but I guess I'm taking it anyway. Who knows, maybe this will be what I need to get pregnant. Man, I can't wait to stop saying that.

I'm not comfortable at all with stopping all my habits. If these pills get rid of my OCD, I don't know what I am gonna do. I'm stressed out because this has been a part of me for most of my life. It's who I am. These pills are basically gonna change who I am and I don't know that I am too comfortable with that. Yes, it is annoying to check things a million times and to have to even everything out and yes, I could probably sleep better if I didn't have to breathe on my other arm because I was breathing on other arm first, but, that is me, I am comfortable with that. But the doctor said not to focus on that cuz if I do, the pills won't work.

P.S. The only silver lining in my day was apparently, there is a doctor on post who does artificial insemination. So hopefully I can maybe get that done before I leave Alaska.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Can I Just Say Again...

How much I LOVE Metformin. I have so much energy! At first, it made me very sleepy and from referencing Dr. Google I would be sleepy for a bit and then I would get energy. They weren't kidding. This pill is awesome. I have energy, I am sleeping regularly and I'm in a great mood cuz of it all. Of course it helps that it is gorgeous outside with the leaves changing, bright sunshine, and warm AND the fact that it's a week til John comes home! Right now I couldn't love my life more than I do right now. I'm even feeling pretty confident with TTC. I actually am not one bit concerned about it today. If we get pregnant when he comes back we do, if not, well, that's just ok with me right now. Odd I know but I'm more concerned with spending time with John and then my mother in law and niece are coming up at the end of the month so I guess me getting pregnant isn't in the front of my mind right now. Plus the fact that he is staying in the Army and we have insurance to cover the meds and financial security eases my mind too. I don't feel so rushed anymore. I think this is going to be one great year from here on out. He comes home, we get visitors, then we leave here for a cross country trip to Louisiana, drop our stuff off, and then it's off to Buffalo for a while, and then we settle in the nice, warm south for a couple years. Ahhhh, life is good.

What A Month This Is

So my husband comes home in about a week. I was looking at my chart and since I'm now on Metformin I SHOULD (cross your fingers) have a 28 day cycle hopefully with a textbook ovulation on CD14. Well, I've been stressin about him coming home later than he was supposed to cuz we'd miss our first possible chance at getting pregnant but, I've come to find that if he comes home on the 13th, THAT IS CD14! Holy crap. This is all so much. I got my Metformin, he's coming home, and I could be pregnant by the end of this month. WHOA. Everyone think positive thoughts!!!!!!!

P.S. Even if I don't O til CD21, we'd still have our shot but maybe this is my chance to FINALLY have my awesome baby story.