Friday, October 10, 2008

Ah the best part of the Army is the FRG. HA! I am so blessed to find out today that the lead FRG lady is, you guessed it, pregnant. Oh and it's just such a great surprise! Can ya tell I'm bitter? I know I am not the only woman who is having problems having a child here but I guess the exceptionally fertile people don't have to think about that. I guess I should maybe mention that if you are going to send out an e-mail saying that not only are you pregnant, but your "partner" if you will is pregnant too, leave me off the list. But I'm sure I'd get, well we sure are busy and we can't take the time to keep track of the infertiles. Then she goes on to tell us that her husband is already where they are going and that it is the worst of conditions. Thanks. I'm so happy to know that my husband will be that much more miserable when he finally gets there. Awesome morale boost for me. Sometimes I really just don't think people think before they speak.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008


Last night, just as I got into my room cuz I gave up on waiting for him, he sent me an IM. Got it through my mobile but I was bummed cuz I really wanted to see him on the webcam. I hate that the Army never ceases to surprise me. I really didn't think he was going to be able to. At least I have been lucky. We've talked everyday and text often. I thought it was getting easier, but yesterday was a harsh reminder that no, it is not getting easier. I really don't see how it can. I am going to miss him today just as much as I did the day he left and all the way up until he comes home.I do wish the worrying would go away though. I find myself thinking about it way more than I should. Everyone tells me I need to keep busy, but trust me when I say, it doesn't matter how busy I am, nothing is going to take my mind off the most important person in my life. I guess this is just something that I am going to have to deal with.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008


Nothing new to report. John and I still talk on webcam when we can. I'm waitin for him now and it doesn't look like he will be able too :( :( The days still aren't gettin easier. I still find my self stressed over the smallest things. I guess that's to be expected though. I seriously just wish I could sleep the year away. Or at least sleep til he comes home for leave and then sleep again til he gets back. That would certainly make the time go by a lot faster than it is. It's been 15 days 7 hours and 44 minutes.

Thursday, October 2, 2008


I got to talk to my hubby on webcam today! It was so good to see his face. Kind of sad too. I just wanted to reach through and hug and kiss him. It was hard to not cry though cuz even though I am seriously grateful that I get to do that, it is almost like a tease. I just wish I were seeing him in person rather than on a stupid computer screen from halfway around the world. Still, it was great to see his smiling face when I sent him a cute or funny message. Just wish it could've lasted longer. We got cut short cuz they needed him. Who knows when he'll get another chance to come on. Could be tonight, might not. I hate this so much.