My Diagnonsense

I went for my follow up for my heart today. I ended up leaving with a completely unexpected prescription. I left with a prescription for Celexa. Awesome. For those who don't know, that is an anti-anxiety, anti-depression med. Apparently the reason my heart is so out of whack (my heart monitor showed my lowest heart rate at 61bpm and my highest 161bpm) is because the little receptor that gets signals from your brain is basically malfunctioning and instead my backup receptors are firing at will causing my heart to spaz out. So, he's hoping that the Celexa will get my anxiety (caused basically by OCD) under control. (Personally I think it's a dehydration issue). I'm not thrilled with taking this medication at all but I guess I'm taking it anyway. Who knows, maybe this will be what I need to get pregnant. Man, I can't wait to stop saying that.

I'm not comfortable at all with stopping all my habits. If these pills get rid of my OCD, I don't know what I am gonna do. I'm stressed out because this has been a part of me for most of my life. It's who I am. These pills are basically gonna change who I am and I don't know that I am too comfortable with that. Yes, it is annoying to check things a million times and to have to even everything out and yes, I could probably sleep better if I didn't have to breathe on my other arm because I was breathing on other arm first, but, that is me, I am comfortable with that. But the doctor said not to focus on that cuz if I do, the pills won't work.

P.S. The only silver lining in my day was apparently, there is a doctor on post who does artificial insemination. So hopefully I can maybe get that done before I leave Alaska.

Can I Just Say Again...

How much I LOVE Metformin. I have so much energy! At first, it made me very sleepy and from referencing Dr. Google I would be sleepy for a bit and then I would get energy. They weren't kidding. This pill is awesome. I have energy, I am sleeping regularly and I'm in a great mood cuz of it all. Of course it helps that it is gorgeous outside with the leaves changing, bright sunshine, and warm AND the fact that it's a week til John comes home! Right now I couldn't love my life more than I do right now. I'm even feeling pretty confident with TTC. I actually am not one bit concerned about it today. If we get pregnant when he comes back we do, if not, well, that's just ok with me right now. Odd I know but I'm more concerned with spending time with John and then my mother in law and niece are coming up at the end of the month so I guess me getting pregnant isn't in the front of my mind right now. Plus the fact that he is staying in the Army and we have insurance to cover the meds and financial security eases my mind too. I don't feel so rushed anymore. I think this is going to be one great year from here on out. He comes home, we get visitors, then we leave here for a cross country trip to Louisiana, drop our stuff off, and then it's off to Buffalo for a while, and then we settle in the nice, warm south for a couple years. Ahhhh, life is good.

What A Month This Is

So my husband comes home in about a week. I was looking at my chart and since I'm now on Metformin I SHOULD (cross your fingers) have a 28 day cycle hopefully with a textbook ovulation on CD14. Well, I've been stressin about him coming home later than he was supposed to cuz we'd miss our first possible chance at getting pregnant but, I've come to find that if he comes home on the 13th, THAT IS CD14! Holy crap. This is all so much. I got my Metformin, he's coming home, and I could be pregnant by the end of this month. WHOA. Everyone think positive thoughts!!!!!!!

P.S. Even if I don't O til CD21, we'd still have our shot but maybe this is my chance to FINALLY have my awesome baby story.

New Doctor, I Love You.

So far. He put me on METFORMIN!!!! Funny thing is I wasn't even going to the doctor pertaining to fertility. I ended up in the ER because my heart was racing and with the family history, my husband was concerned and thought I should go. So I went and the first thing they do is hook me up for an EKG cuz, as the nurse said, she wanted to 'see if my heart is really racing'. I looked at her thinking, I think I know damn well when my heart is racing but ok, do it up. Sure enough, my heartbeat was at 136 to which she says, 'I guess your heart really is racing'.

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So they ask me all kinds of questions about family history and if my legs hurt and if I've had any numbness or pain anywhere. I told them chest pains come sometimes and my fingers on my left hand tingle. My diagnosis for that? Carpal Tunnel. Awesome. So they gave me a wrist brace.

Anywho.

They decide to take some blood from me. Well as it turns out, I am pretty dehydrated so on top of blood work, I need an IV too. So they try to find a vein and it ain't goin so well. I told them I have a good one on the side of my wrist and to give that a try. The nurse tries and he must have missed the vein cuz pretty much nothing came out. (Might I just add that OW that is not a fun spot to get stuck with a needle). So they keep trying. Two guys couldn't find it and at this point I'm like, hey guys, I can just go home and chug some water, but apparently that's not the way to do things. So, a chick nurse comes in and gets one in my left hand much to the relief of me cuz they dudes were talkin of doin a femoral IV or one in my foot. Ick. They give me one bag of IV fluid and after many hours, I am sent home with a wrist brace and a doctor's appointment. Also, an appointment for an ECG.

So I go to my doctor's appointment and my doctor is asking me the same questions the people at the ER asked me and then he asks if my cycles are always this irregular. I was like, uh, yeah, I have PCOS. So he then asks if anyone has ever mentioned Metformin to me. I told him that my last doctor wouldn't put me on it cuz they have protocols to follow and blah blah blah. He didn't seem too pleased with that and he told me I am giving you a prescription for Metformin today. (YES!) He also decided to do blood work to check my hormones again to see where I'm at. (double YES!)

So I have to go back next month for a follow up and I have an appointment Monday for an ECG (he says he hears a murmur when I'm lying down but not when I'm sitting up) and I guess I find out the results of my hormone test when I go back.

I can't tell you how beyond happy I am that I got put on these pills! Well, except for the nausea and the bathroom issues, I'm happy. Hopefully this is what I need to get pregnant.

New Car

We just got a new car the other day. It's an 09 Cobalt. We had to get rid of our Jeep due to the fact that it was takin a shit. The driver side window's regulator has been broken since July of last year, it sat all winter and needed an oil change BAD, and the transmission was on it's way out. Book value of it was only $2800 but due to all the scratches and everything wrong with it we only got $400 dollars for it. I'm thinkin we kinda got screwed on buying it. It was used and it's an 01 but we paid $10,000 for it only 2 years ago. Eh, oh well. At least now we have a safe, reliable, NEW car that I know will make it across the country no problem. Plus it has On-Star and XM radio. Only thing we have to get used to is there are no power windows or locks.


P.S. My hubby comes home in less than a month!

Coincidence?

So I'm lame and take all those quizzes on facebook. I especially make a note to take them when they pertain to babies and such. It seems everyone I take I get multiples as my result and I've noticed they also say I will have them in December of 2010. Hmmmm. Is this a coincidence or is someone trying to tell me something? It's nice to think about and it's totally possible. We PCS to Ft. Polk (John is re-enlisting for those that don't know) in November and we get there by January. If I start aggressively doing fertility treatments when we get there, this is a total possibility.

Ha.

You think by now I'd stop trying to get my hopes up.

Especially with stupid facebook quizzes.

Still it's nice to dream...

Happy 4th Of July!!!!!!

I really hate when people bitch and moan about this country and yet continue to live here. If you don't like our military, maybe you'll like the military in some other country. Go enjoy civil wars in Ethiopia. If you don't like capitalism, go enjoy communism in North Korea, or Cuba. (Cuz North Korea isn't all about war and bombing the shit out of us). Seriously, people need to educate themselves about world affairs. Yes, were arrogant at times and yes there is a good number of us that are overweight, But you know what? We earned that. We aren't having any civil wars that are causing our children to starve (like in some third world countries). Also, I'm pretty sure there is no genocide going on in this country like in Africa. Better yet, why don't you go live in Iraq where if you played soccer and you didn't win you'd be tortured or killed. Of course this was during Saddam's rule, ya know, BEFORE our military men and women (including my husband might I add) got there. But we're the bad guys in the world right?

Seriously, if you think you hate this country, go research other countries. You say we're obsessed with war and National Security, well why don't you just go see what other countries are obsessed with war and National security. (And nuclear weapons).

Am I saying our country is perfect? Am I saying we don't need to change some of our laws to better our country? Hell no. But I am proud to live here and proud of the freedoms I have and I realize that NONE OF THIS came for free!

Sincerely,
PROUD ARMY WIFE
Jenn Martek.